Sleep

"Sleep, I need sleep"...it essentially dials down the importance to think, and that my dear is a very pleasant feeling. To not think takes you to a completely different state of mind..you can feel its there..and yet an absence of its need, an absence of any emotion, be it happiness, be it the opposite.  Each night I go to sleep to find out that my each day gets even better!

My taste buds get better... the sweet pineapple and the li'l sour orange.. every bit seems to come to life to complete the overall taste of a fruit chat or maybe a tea..the essence of Adrak , ilaichi and tea...

My emotions get stronger; my smile gets brighter, my tears..thicker, my anger..tougher, my love...kinder, every bit of my soul seems to come to life to complete the fascinating flow of emotions...

As night approaches, "the absence" engulfs me in its arms and I'm swept over by this beautiful feeling, this wonderful aura of Sleep! :) 

 

I believe...

There's only one thing that I've ever truly believed in... that one thing is Love.

I've always believed that someone somewhere is made for me,

Like the made for each other types... Like the jodi made in heaven,

I know it all sounds too childish or maybe too girlish...

And thinking such a thing in my case..I don't know.. people might just laugh...

But I've known love, and I know what I experienced was not the most powerful kind of it... 

And I want to know.. I want to love and be loved.. I want that kinda Hug..the hug that makes you feel..oh damn! this is what you had wanted all along.. I want to feel that tight embrace... It only hurts to not have felt it yet...

The hand on your head that makes you feel calm, the kiss on the forehead... Can't these be perfect.. the right way, the right person, the right moment, the right gesture.. I am left imagining...Only if Love gives me a chance...I can't imagine the rest of my life like this..Alone...yes, i feel alone without that part...Maybe its unfair... unfair to all of those who are with me...trying to make me feel NOT alone..but may it be unfair... Because, I do feel alone, and I can do nothing about it... Because I know..I know that I am incomplete without the one... the one that I am made for in this world.. I know, I know I have broken hearts... But that wasn't right, right? .. How could I possibly have lived a lie...convincing myself that I love someone I don't.. I had to move forward..I can't go back now.. I know everything can be alright if I do... But just because I feel alone?... This won't be right.

I believe and I strongly do, that I will find him, the one for whom my heart so dearly longs.