I Miss You (part II)

I had been sleeping i think, for almost a week since after that day. And then i woke up. It was again the thunder, the heavy shower...but this time, I wasn't crying... I had read somewhere.."Love is everything it's cracked up to be…It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for." and from where I don't know, it flashed into my mind along with the lightning. I ran, ran fast..away from the darkness I had been dying in every day. I cannot love him..even tho' he did. I don't blame him for anything.. But I had to make things straight...The ring- I left it at the side-table. I ran as fast as I could into the rainy night and there was I, standing at the door-step of the house. tak-tak : no replies. tringggg: no replies. I called the land-line. Could I have been more gutsy! Well, the lady of the house picked up. In a few moments time I was facing the family. The family, I dream of being a part...and again the face.. from the back...slowly approaching me. "What...what happened?" He thought I was out of my mind. I guess..I was. But I don't know, maybe it was love controlling my mind at that time, that I was so calm and controlled and adamant to tell him, to tell him that my love was his. Even though he had said I'd have to wait and so it makes no sense. I knew at this point of time that I COULD WAIT. I realized I was feeling alive after such a long time. I looked at him and smiled...and said "can I not join in for dinner?" He gave the wierdest expression! And Aunty smiled and took me in..I gave some excuses for the sudden appearance and we all had dinner together, like a happy family. It felt like a new life. He kept giving me those questioning looks and I closed my eyes, nodded and smiled. After the delicious food, I excused from everyone wanting to speak to him.

And then we were alone. I didn't say a thing -

I looked him in the eye, held his hand, bent down on my knees and then held my head down in front of him for two minutes.

Then I left the house bidding happy farewells to all and promising to see them all soon again. They didn't know what I was there for. But I was glad, I had spoken my heart, i am his forever now, never felt so satisfied, so complete, so alive. I miss him, yes I miss him. But I know I can wait. :) I wouldn't rather do anything else.