I remember that night as if it were yesterday's, I was to catch a flight to my parents' the next day. Hence, I slept on time, though I was so full of excitement, that I was actually going to see my parents after an year!!! That was really something for me... I totally love my family! As I was happily sleeping...in the middle of the night... There was a car passing by, right in front of my eyes and behind that a truck standing and I saw something...something I couldn't believe was possible...my heart was shaking, so terrible I had never felt before... And suddenly I opened my eyes,...I was still in bed and I had been moving so much that I had messed up the sheets, but I couldn't care less. What had touched my heart at that moment was so horrifying to the core that I couldn't possibly even look anywhere else but into the night, I felt lost. I was feeling like I had lost everything that belonged to me... And then a stream of tears started flooding over...I was feeling unconscious, my heart beating so slowly... I wanted to breath, but it was like, stuck! I cried n cried ... n finally found my breath.. but I couldn't come out of what I had seen...It had shaken my insides...I was not able to come to terms with the fact that it was just a dream... I stood up, drank some water... my hand was shaking, I couldn't stop crying... how could I see such a thing even in dreams and that too my own?? I called him up...he was away for school..but I had to talk to him. It was 2 in the morning when I saw the clock...so maybe he was about to return according to the timings there.. I had to hear his voice, to know that he is fine... I couldn't stop crying and my sister couldn't understand why, and I... I couldn't explain.. I couldn't say those words- what I saw could not be spoken. But I was restless..I had to speak to him... had to.. how could I? dream tht..?
Finally when I did hear his voice cheerful as always...I couldn't stop my loud cry of - you may say- satisfaction. I told him a hundred times how much I loved him... that I can't live without him...I promised him gifts.. I promised him every happiness.. I promised him that I wouldn't scold him ever...
I..I truly love you my brother... very much. And though I've still been scolding you ;) believe me... I love you so very much... You're like my 'bacha', really. You mean my life to me.
I remember praying to God, to have a brother to play with, to love, to care for... And look, I found a brother who cares for me more so! Someone who cheers me up when I am sad... Who loves me more than I had thought anyone could love anybody... Who is sweet and keeps the family so close together... Without whom the family would have been truly "incomplete"!
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