The Light suddenly goes out; with the back of my finger I clear the tears trickling down my eyes..look up and around, total darkness-total silence, seemed like the state of my mind. I got up from my chair making creepy noises and opened the door of my room...Since the day we've shifted in this new hostel, life as well as darkness have intimidated me.
Moving out looking for some light, I approach the balcony..there's nobody in or around. But there's the soft cool breeze that makes me smile, the beautiful stars that shine above high, the moon that speaks to me often. He usually has someone's message for me. Someone far away on the land of marble rocks, at the heart of India...someone who barely speaks to me but not so seldom to the moon. I am given the message by his divine luminescence and my heart starts pumping blood faster...lab-dab lab-dab...i can hear it. I feel the need to hold on to something, the railing's wet, but anyhow; that has been afterall my only support the past few weeks. I close my eyes, listening to myself, wondering how bad can it get, how much can it hurt, how deep are these feelings, but something at the back of my neck disturbs my plumbing into thoughts. I turn around and its the cool breeze sending chills down my spine.
Tears again flood my eyes...is he really going so far away from me? Am I really going to lose him? I fall on my knees...I cannot break down, I cannot lose hope so easily. When I listened to my heart for the first time and did the right thing of facing the truth that I cannot love anybody else but him - I didn't break down then, then why today. I have to face him with fortitude...i have to try all I can. Standing up I see him in front of me - no this can't be true..you can't be here. He smiles and says - Ofcourse I am, don't you see me? I cover my eyes with both my hands...and after a while when I peak through my fingers, I still see him there, looking at me with those love-filled eyes. I see them saying so many things asking so many questions making so many promises and our eyes start conversing..I feel so happy to have him with me..so calm, may nothing disturb this moment; but suddenly, all the tubelights start clinking, i look inside and when I look back, he's gone, and though there was light in me for those few minutes, he took it away and left darkness inside me, again.
Moving out looking for some light, I approach the balcony..there's nobody in or around. But there's the soft cool breeze that makes me smile, the beautiful stars that shine above high, the moon that speaks to me often. He usually has someone's message for me. Someone far away on the land of marble rocks, at the heart of India...someone who barely speaks to me but not so seldom to the moon. I am given the message by his divine luminescence and my heart starts pumping blood faster...lab-dab lab-dab...i can hear it. I feel the need to hold on to something, the railing's wet, but anyhow; that has been afterall my only support the past few weeks. I close my eyes, listening to myself, wondering how bad can it get, how much can it hurt, how deep are these feelings, but something at the back of my neck disturbs my plumbing into thoughts. I turn around and its the cool breeze sending chills down my spine.
Tears again flood my eyes...is he really going so far away from me? Am I really going to lose him? I fall on my knees...I cannot break down, I cannot lose hope so easily. When I listened to my heart for the first time and did the right thing of facing the truth that I cannot love anybody else but him - I didn't break down then, then why today. I have to face him with fortitude...i have to try all I can. Standing up I see him in front of me - no this can't be true..you can't be here. He smiles and says - Ofcourse I am, don't you see me? I cover my eyes with both my hands...and after a while when I peak through my fingers, I still see him there, looking at me with those love-filled eyes. I see them saying so many things asking so many questions making so many promises and our eyes start conversing..I feel so happy to have him with me..so calm, may nothing disturb this moment; but suddenly, all the tubelights start clinking, i look inside and when I look back, he's gone, and though there was light in me for those few minutes, he took it away and left darkness inside me, again.
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